monster.

I was just thinking about humanity. how we're all supposedly innately good. how deep down inside of us, there is a light that supposedly never goes out.
and I had a strange thought.

take a kid who's been living in a rural area their whole life. not a whole lot of worldly things. no religion; no moral beliefs. and once they're 16, take it all away from them.

start over fresh. this kid is a clean slate now; an experiment.


put them in a big city. huge city. new york. san francisco. los angeles. las vegas. chicago. you have a lot of options. each city is a different world. a different path. pick your poison, and pick it well.

put them in a relatively nice house. give them a television. give them $200,000. give them the internet . give them aspirin and a box of tissues. let the kid go. let them run free. the whole world is theirs. let them get a job. make friends. go to school. whatever they want to do. their life is in their own hands now.

watch them. watch them closely. this kid is practically a loaded gun. loaded and loose. they have everything at their finger tips. they can buy and sell; love and lose; live and die. kill or be killed. they are everything that they ever wanted to be. freedom. all at once.

watch while they corrupt themselves. sex, drugs, alcohol. things the world tells them are good and right and okay. they have no parents. they have no guardian. no one to look up to. no guidance. just them, and their possessions. one the things they know and hold so dear to them.

and when you see fit, take everything away from them. all of it. every single thing. all the money. the drugs. the TV. internet. cell phone. whatever they have, take it.

watch them again. watch them closely. what will they do? they have "learned" so much from society. the world has told them what is supposedly good. the battle between good and evil is being fought.

and it will continue to be fought until God comes back. but I'll get to that later.

the devil and God are raging inside of them.

they have nothing.

but they want everything. they have known everything. for so long, they have lived in a bubble. then you popped that bubble and allow them to run loose. and now, they have been chained. chained to what they don't want. they're looking for the key. the answer. they want to know what it will take to get it all back.

the key comes in the form of death. killing. murder.

yes, chances are this kid will steal and murder. they will lie and deceive. just to get what they want. to get to what they once knew. this kid wants the drugs and the alcohol. they want another one night stand. another night in the arms of a stranger. they want everything and everyone that wanted them. they will settle for anything and anyone now. they are alone and they have nothing. their fate is in the hands of the street and the people who occupy them.

these kids will do anything to regain the things they once had. they want their house, and their money. they want their internet and their TV and their cell phones or iPod. they want to dull the pain somehow. they just don't know what it will take.

they will do anything.

the world has made them numb to themselves. no longer is there any regard for health and safety. they have nothing to lose. so they will kill. they will murder. they will steal. life has left the lifeless. there is only hatred and death now. what once was, is no longer. but they WANT it, so badly.

this young kid, an innocent child just a few years ago, is now a beast. a monster. they will do anything for the greater evil that they are so close to now.

lives will be lost. blood will be spilled. tears will be shed.

the good Lord giveth and the good Lord taketh away.

but this kid runs their own life. they don't need a master. they are their own god, and they will rule until the day they die.


and then, they see that all hope is gone. the fight is closing in. they are in a dark alley with a gun and a price tag on their head. the cops are catching up. the mob is after them. they took what wasn't theirs, and they have no plans to give it back.


it's too late now. they put the gun to their head, and they pull the trigger. they have pulled this very trigger so many times before. in schools and shopping malls. in dark alleys, clubs and bedrooms. In an effort to find peace, love and happiness, again. the things they thought they once had. they want them back, and they want the things to be real this time. they're searching. for everything that was taken, and now this gun is all they have. and they will use it, because they don't know any better. they don't know what exists on the other side. they know nothing of what is good and what is bad. what is wrong and right.

morality is foreign.


they will pull the trigger and their life will end. they had everything, and now they have nothing.

nothing to lose.

they didn't realize what they're worth. what their life means. the monster that lives in their body has no regard for itself.

no more cops. no more mobs. no more death. they don't want blood on their hands. stains of their past, torturing the future. they want to be rescued, deep down inside their heart. but the monster in his body couldn't care less. this monster wants more. it feeds on the blood of the innocent. love is lost to the beast. hope is a flickering flame. these things will destroy the beast. the monster needs life. life in the form of death.


lights out.
all because there was no one to help.

no one to say it was going to be okay.
everyone was afraid of the monster.
people were afraid of the dark boxes that this kid hid in the back of their mind.

people turned away, because they were afraid.

the good Lord giveth, and the good Lord taketh away.


Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window...
That night he caged her.
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.
Monster.