possible work-in-progress

So many people are telling me so many different things at one time. it's safe to assume that I know nothing. not a single thing about trust or honesty. I'd like to think that I do, and I talk about it, but when it comes down to it, I'm deathly afraid to be honest with a few certain people.

I'm afraid of rejection.
I'm afraid that it will ruin our relationship(s).

It's either,
lose yourself completely.
or possibly lose someone that you care about.

and I value them and their friendship so much, so that is the last chance I want to take.

and timing. timing is everything, right?

well, there is never a good time for heartache, now is there?


oh, but they're going through a lot and this would be just one more thing
oh, but they don't care.
oh, but uh, I, eh, um, well...


excuses.

when it comes down to it, I'm just a hypocritical, afraid, moody, pitiful, pathetic, feeble and emotional basket-case.